It's so crazy seeing so much Joss in Season 8. Like, he's pouring his heart into this. There is so much pain and self-doubt and self-disgust.
It's why calling this crackfic feels... hurtful to him. I can't imagine my posting a story I poured my heart and soul into and someone coming along and tearing it apart.
I mean, I understand how and why people call Season 8 crackfic. It has crackiliciousness in it. But it is coming from a heartfelt place and I understand not liking the story, but when I read Season 8, I kinda just ache because of all the self-disgust in it, because of all the issues I can see an almost invisible thread tracing back to Joss.
We write who we are. We write from places of pain, our pain.
And I think about Joss calling himself a "sad, bitter old man" and there's this self-awareness there, that he sees himself this way and I think maybe wishes he wasn't.
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It's why calling this crackfic feels... hurtful to him. I can't imagine my posting a story I poured my heart and soul into and someone coming along and tearing it apart.
I mean, I understand how and why people call Season 8 crackfic. It has crackiliciousness in it. But it is coming from a heartfelt place and I understand not liking the story, but when I read Season 8, I kinda just ache because of all the self-disgust in it, because of all the issues I can see an almost invisible thread tracing back to Joss.
We write who we are. We write from places of pain, our pain.
And I think about Joss calling himself a "sad, bitter old man" and there's this self-awareness there, that he sees himself this way and I think maybe wishes he wasn't.